Hi, I came on here about a month ago to tell my story and I mentioned my husband by name and where he lived when he was young. So everything got taken off, it was my own fault I was in such a state I was just jabbering away. I think because it;s been 4 week im thinking I should be ok by now, or atleast a bit better, but when he left he told me and our son he was going for some space and he would decide if he was coming back. I think that's why on Tuesday of last week he came to the the house to fix something that was leaking and told me he wasn't coming back. I had to tell our son because he didn't bother to do that whilst he was here. His sister just lives over the road and I've walked past with the dog and he's never there. His mam kept saying to my son 'you can just walk over the road and see your dad whenever you want' he couldn't do that because his dads not there, ever. It was his dad's birthday in August, I had text his dad the night before to see if he would be in for our son to bring his gifts over, bearing in mind he has seen his dad a few times at the most and for less than an hour sometimes. So he went over and I headed thee other way with the dog, then I looked back and realised he was still stood at the door, his aunty was there and when I went and asked what was happening she said he wasn't there and hadn't been there since teatime the day before. This upset my son so we came back home, he did text later to say he was back, so my son went back over but wasn't gone long. The next day was our wedding annivesary so that was a nightmare. I don't have any friends or family who live here. I know he's going out and about as he has nearly 4 weeks off work, he didn't bother seeing our son, everytime I asked him he said he had already made plans. I still love him and I'm not coping at all, I just want him to come home, we've been together 20 years and it's all just being thrown away. I've asked him to go to relate or anywhere but he says no, he's too private a person. I thought by now I'd be starting to feel better not worse.can anyone help me xxx