me (17m) and my gf(18) have begin dating for 6 months
i live her she makes me happy but i can’t get this guy out of my head. hes actually one of her friend (15) and i met him this year. we had 2 parties together. the first one i got really drunk and i was having kind of a breakdown. i vented to him
about my ed and i listened to me and tried his hardest to cheer me up. himself suffers from the same ed as me and when we talked together i felt so understood that i wanna talk to him everyday. the second party he was really drunk but cheerful. that night he confessed to me that if i wasn’t already dating my gf he would have tried to kiss me. since this night i can’t get him out of my head because i would have done the same thing if i wasn’t dating her. i don’t really know if he was being honest ´. i know that if i had kissed him i would have wanted to be in a relationship with him cause i’m not into kissing random people. i feel really guilty for even thinking about him in that way while dating my gf who’s an amazing but really unstable mentally and kind of draining person. i dont know what to anymore. i still love my gf but the feeling aren’t as strong as they used to be in the beginning of our relationship. i’m confused about my sexuality and i’ve never felt that way because of a guy. i’m scared it might not be a crush but just attachment issues or me asking for men validation but he’s so sweet handsome and even tho i’ve only talked to him like 5 times i really dont wanna lose him.