I’ve been married 19 years, we’ve had ups and downs, more downs than ups but we’ve battled through - on the outside things seem okay at the minute but I am so bloody miserable.
My kids are teens and from being very mummy reliant pre covid they are now finding their own feet which is amazing, but it’s shown the bloody huge gaps in my life.
i work crazy hard - out 6am to 7pm then work in the evenings (teacher). I do this because we need my income as hubby has his own business and I’ve always wanted to support him to fulfill his dreams. I also love my job.
hubby is NEVER there, he’s either tired or working or going to something that is important to him - I feel like bottom of his list. I historically did holidays with kids alone as he was too busy. He has finally booked a holiday this year for October but it is the first family holiday in years and those holidays have been two days not a week.
i managed with kids and work and it was all okay, but now my kids are older and want less mum time I have nothing other than a massively demanding job and a distant disinterested husband. I have no family as my mum died when I was the age my kids are now.
I’m not confident or out going, have awful self esteem and in part that’s probably why I’m in the situation I am in but yeah - ideas please on how to navigate this bit as I feel so low and so lonely and so worthless to all I love that yeah.
i just feel judged and unsupported by husband and I feel like it’s his life on his terms and no empathy for me no willingness to bend for my likes. I don’t think he even likes me.