Im 23, my partner is 42, unemployed with a bit of a dodgy past. He says I’m judgemental because I don’t want to raise our son around drugs and schizophrenic ex cons. He’s changed. He hasn’t touched me in 6 months. He doesn’t look at me the same way.
what upsets me is that he promised marriage and to find a job and to fix his sleep schedule and that was two years ago.
I was desperate (I have some mental issues, notably Asperger’s syndrome) and wanted to be loved. I thought he would change. Still hasn’t married me. Still wakes up at 2pm, doesn’t turn up to meetings, doesn’t answer the phone often.
He doesn’t come to see our son often even though he lives nearby and has no other commitments (except ogling other women apparently).
And yet I would die for him. There’s so much more context but my psychiatrists all say I should leave him. I would literally crumble without him. I can’t believe I let myself think he would be a good husband and father. Also, I’ve lent him hundreds of pounds. Feel terrible. Sorry this is so long. I’m torn as to whether I should leave and whether I could physically and mentally bear it.