What would you do?

[goldenlillacs19]

Some advice/help/thoughts/anything will be appreciated.

I'm in the middle of nowhere. Years of trying to make friends, I accepted it's not happening. OH has his job and family here and will not (ever) re-consider relocating.

Our relationship is coming to an end.

Right now, I can go back and live close to my family or try somewhere new.
I will probably (most likely) experience loneliness, depression, and grief after 7 years with my OH so I'm scared isolation will be really bad for my mental health.
At the same time, I'm dreading moving back close to my own family. Perhaps there'll be 8 % support and 92 % of drama and problems.

Has anyone been in my or a similar position? Any advice or words of kindness or support?

Last three years have been very unkind, and to think I have to go through more hard life stuff lol

I would like to live somewhere exciting (I always wanted that, because isolation kills dreams) but I'm scared of starting everything anew and loneliness and, frankly, very bad scenarios.

Though perhaps I'm scared of my family even more lol

Any thoughts? Or experiences? I just don't want to feel all alone all the time.

I moved 150 miles away from everyone I knew to start afresh .
no family of friends so slightly different. But four years later and I am happier here now . It is hard to make new friends though - it has taken time .

but no point living a life of misery - you’re a long time dead

Thank you so much for your words Fidgety31

I'm glad your happier now, and I agree that making new friends takes time.

You're right about living a life of misery and a long time dead. I don't even feel like a person anymore, like an extra in someone else's movie.

its hard to make a change - but if you look at the alternative of staying how you are - maybe that will inspire you to start the process