I left my husband about six weeks ago, and for the first couple of weeks I felt great. I felt free, and knew I had made the right decision. But as time has gone on, and particularly over the course of the last couple of weeks, I’ve become increasingly depressed. While I knew the marriage wasn’t making me happy, and he was actually kind of abusive, I have left behind more than just the relationship. I have left my home, my cats, my financial security… everything that anchored me has gone, and I feel completely cast adrift. Now I feel like I’m really not coping.
I am already on antidepressants (long term) and I see a counsellor once a week, but I don’t feel good at all, my resolve is wavering, and I am desperately worried about my future - about money and about being alone (I’m in my 40s and I hear how hard it is to meet someone) and I am grieving for the life I left behind.
I am just so sad and low. Has anyone else experienced these feelings - been on a high from leaving, to later being depressed? How long did the depression last, and how did you come out of it? Please tell me things get better. At the moment I’m feeling like I have made a terrible choice and have ruined everything for myself.