I made that last night when I was super emotional (read that one if you like, everyone was so helpful and thank you all so much) but I wanted a separate one for this.
I am just so sick of struggling everyday after my breakup. I miss what it feels like waking up everyday happy, going to work, having a shower, watching Netflix, going to bed happy, and literally just functioning as a normal human being.
At the minute I feel constantly sick to my stomach, weeks after the breakup I can still barely eat or sleep, I hate going to bed and I hate waking up. I can’t watch tv or listen to music as it all reminds me of him. I don’t want to get ready in the mornings. I have just lost myself completely, and I can’t even imagine functioning properly again or being remotely happy. I hope what I’m saying makes sense and I hope people can relate.
I am just struggling today (like everyday), it’s my first day in my new home and I don’t even have any plans. I don’t know what I am hoping to achieve with this post as I already got advice on my situation last night, but just some encouragement maybe. I don’t want to keep pestering friends and family and just keep repeating myself over and over like I have done for weeks now.
I am trying to snap out of this and carry on, but I just can’t. The hardest thing is having no closure and not understanding why this happened. I just want to talk to him but I know I never will again.
I feel so jealous of everyone my age with partners who love each other, and my dp left me and now I am just despising life. I know that sounds pathetic to be thinking ‘why me?’, but I can’t help it.