So Low

[Forgiveitall]

I’m feeling so low tonight and have been for a while . I’m on different medications for insomnia but nothing is quite working .

these days, I look forward to the night time so the day will be over but when the night comes, my mind is racing and I can’t sleep

I have just posted a thread above about insomnia. I’m sorry you can’t sleep :( . it’s rubbish & feels so lonely!

Thanks . It’s more than the insomnia. I’m feeling so deeply unhappy and I just don’t know how to change things because I’ve tried so hard . I’m exhausted from trying so hard

@Castiron12
Sorry to hear about your insomnia too . It’s hell

@Forgiveitall do you have support or someone to talk to (in the daytime or nighttime) it sounds like you are having to battle with a lot at the moment I’m sorry

I’m sorry you’re feeling like this OP. Could you talk to some friends or relatives? And then maybe make an appointment with gp?

I don’t really know who to talk to anymore. There are some stressful circumstances that I’m finding difficult to cope with . I’m living with a man - a housemate - who seems a little obsessed with me . It’s starting to break me down as I can’t find a way out. My head is just churning with that and lots more besides . Thanks for your responses . You’re kind

You can always chat here if it would help.
I hope you find sleep soon.

Thanks @calmlakes Things mount in my head and not having a place that feels like home feels hard. Sometimes I feel like my housemate is watching everything I do and I want him out of my life

I'm not surprised, no one likes feeling watched.
Can either you move or get him to ?

What do you mean by this? If it’s your house you’d generally ask him to leave, if it’s not then you’d pack up and leave yourself.

What’s the story here, why can’t you walk out, or get rid of him?

@calmlakes
thank you 💐
im trying to move out but it’s been difficult to find somewhere . I had a thread about him which made me realise how dysfunctional it is and that I let him cross my boundaries. I’m now trying to put boundaries in place but it’s not that easy. He’s overly focused on me . He talks like we are a couple. I don’t feel physically unsafe etc but I really don’t think he knows the effect he’s having ,

He owns the place and is here 24/7 (& I mean 24/7) so he isn’t going anywhere . I think that’s the main issue and there are others that are harder to cope with without the base of home. I’ve a Pain in my chest

I'm not surprised you are anxious (and have a pain in your chest) I hope you find somewhere safe to move to soon.

@PasTrop
explained above. Looking for a place (in this housing crisis

Thanks @calmlakes i thought we’d be friends when I first moved in .

Can you not move into a B&B or stay with friends if things are so bad?

@PasTrop
i need a permanent place to live. It’s very very very very difficult to find somewhere . Trust me I know all about it !

Yes, I understand, but would it not be better to move into a temporary place for a short while along the way?

Have you family who could put you up for a bit?

@PasTrop
the problem is the ‘short while’. It took me a year to find this place! I had a while thread about this. Just trust me that it’s very difficult to find a place and that I’m exploring all acquired and am exhausted from spending all my free time house hunting

if I had family I could stay with i would have done that but they live far away and I can’t wfh (I’m a chef) . Believe me I’ve thought if everything . I’m stuck here for now

Sorry for typos . Exhausted.

@Forgiveitall

I assume you haven't got enough money to rent a house/flat in your own?

Therefore you need to look for a house share or to be a lodger in someone's home.

Have you tried spareroom.com or asking on Facebook?

I get things are exhausting when you are stressed but it really sounds live where you are living and who you are living with is completely unsuitable and bad for your health.