Me and ex broke up when I was 22 weeks. I felt he was awful with not sticking to plans, being distant, wanting to drink a lot rather than spend time together. When we were together he was often quiet and off with me. I didn’t handle it well, shouted, swore, stormed off at times. Was generally a Total Bitch. There were moments he tried to be calm and talk and by then I was just upset at how he’d been with me so was not receptive and was difficult. I will also add my hormones were ALL over the place, I felt irrationally protective of the baby and worried extensively.
As time has gone on I contacted him and said I was sorry. Said I felt he’d let me down but life was too short and we had something good only a few months prior. I poured my heart out and said let’s not be apart this is silly, we both were struggling etc. He’s not responded and I feel shit tbh. I do feel I wasn’t myself and my reactions to things were extreme at times. My friends say if he was going to end up blanking me that he’s not worth it anyway as he clearly never truly cared but im not sure that’s true. I think I pushed him away by being over the top, the things he was doing weren’t great but I didn’t need to react as I did. I don’t know whether to cut contact entirely (unless he wants to talk about dc) or whether to keep apologising and suggest we fix things.