DP wasn’t great in my pregnancy. He would visit (worked away) and clearly want to leave. I’d call when he was home and he’d be drunk…so left me to have a session alone. He was brutal to me when I had a virus in pregnancy, I struggled for a couple of days and he asked if he could pick me up rather than come to me (around an hour drive). I said I couldn’t move and felt awful. He begrudgingly got food from the local Tesco express and then announced he wanted to go back to his base as he had stuff to do. These are a few examples. I didn’t take it well and was verbally very awful to him, said he was shit a bastard and didn’t care about me or the baby. I also threw my sandwich across the room in anger (not at him I hasten to add).
i have apologised for all this quite a lot. But he doesn’t even acknowledge his part in any of it. He maintains I was out of order (I was) but that he doesn’t owe me an apology and I was just demanding.
I feel really uncomfortable about this. Wondering if maybe he’s correct and I’m remembering it wrongly. Or simply me sweating and getting angry cancels out anything he did. I’m finding it hard to be around him when he seems to act like he did nothing wrong. Am I being unfair by holding onto this given my own behaviour?