Hi,
My boyfriend left me almost 2 weeks ago because he has fell out of love with me, and I’ve just been a mess. I have had to move out of his home and back to my parents, where I now face having to give up the job I love too because it’s too far away. I don’t know what to do right now, I want to get a flat back in the area I lived in with him so I can keep my job and restart my life, but I don’t know if it would hurt too much living there but alone. However, I can’t stay here for long and really need to face rebuilding my life.
I went on a date last night, I know it’s far too soon to be dating but I wanted to try and see if it worked as a distraction, and at least make me realise that there are more men out there. But it’s just made me feel worse. I spent the whole date just wishing he was my ex, I went back to his house (bad decision, I know) and when we were cuddling I just felt horrible because he just isn’t my ex. So ultimately my decision to go on this date has made me feel 10 times worse.
I just feel in a complete mess, I know he’s not coming back, but I just can’t accept it to even begin to try to move on. And I just don’t know where to go from here in my life either, do I move back to the area and learn to be alone, or do I leave the job I love and find a new one here in a town that I hate? Do I choose a completely new place to live and start again there? I have no idea what to do but I can’t just live in the limbo. 2 weeks ago I was so happy and loving my life, and it’s came crashing down and I can’t deal with it.
I just can’t envision things getting better, as dramatic as it sounds. All that is running through my head is how happy he made me and all the things he did for me and how he was the best man in the world, but he just doesn’t love me anymore and it’s my fault because I didn’t make enough effort, he said it felt like I was just a roommate. And now he’s gone.
Any advice please xxx