I've been with my DP for 14 years, we have 2 DC.
The past 14 years have been somewhat difficult and I know I should of left a long time ago.
DP was heavily addicted to drugs until 6 years ago. He got clean with a drug intervention team.
We had to uproot our entire life's - I didn't want to leave my family and friends but I did it for him, on the basis he stays clean.
I left my whole support network and I struggle to make new friends. I don't have a single person where we live.
He's never once sorted a babysitter out and said let's go out. We've been out as a couple once in 6 years for a hour.
I'm severely depressed over this, I need adult company. I CRAVE IT and I'm just at home with the DC all day, every damn day. I don't even know anyone to go out with and leave DC with him.
He has been clean up to this year and he's slowly getting back into the habit of it. First it was a one off, and now it's turning into a monthly thing.
He thinks I don't know when he comes back from being out - but I do.
I just can't do this again. I feel like my hearts already broken and I just have nothing left to give.
The problem is.
My family live very far away, and my DC have SEN needs. So it'll be very difficult for me just to up and leave with DC.
My eldest DC just got accepted into a SEN school. It is very difficult to move areas with a Sen child due to lack of school places.
So do I stay in a dead relationship for the sake of my child's needs and happiness? Or do I just say fuck it and leave? You only live once?