Why all these years later is my ex boyfriend on my mind? When I love and adore my boyfriend!

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Is this normal? I don't know what's wrong with me! I have a beautiful baby with my boyfriend we've been together for 7 years, he's the love of my life and I love my family.

However I really don't know know why but I keep having dreams about my "first love" from my teenage years, I lost my virginity to him, and he was my first proper boyfriend we went out for maybe like 2/3 years?

But I'm driving myself mad, because of these dreams that keep occurring I find myself wondering about him and curious about what he's doing with his life etc I had a dream last night that we decided to get back together! It's happening A LOT! And I can't understand why all of a sudden because obv we've been apart from years and had no contact! But I've found myself missing him? I think I miss the nostalgia of the relationship if that makes sense? But I truly do love my boyfriend and obv I don't actually want to be with this ex...

But I don't know why subconsciously this keeps happening? And I wish it would stop 😭 cause I've found myself mooching on his and his girlfriends socials (merely out of curiosity) but I know if I ever found my boyfriend doing this id be absolutely gutted... has anyone else ever found themselves feeling like this?

I've literally not spared a thought to him for all these years and no doubt will never see him again but something is psychologically is drawing me for whatever reason 😭

I would treat it as some unresolved feelings you have about life moving on and this big commitment to your partner with your baby. It’s not about the ex really, it’s just your brain processing how things change, maybe the sense of freedom and the infinite possibilities of youth that you had then.

I think your brain is processing and sorting things, and acknowledging that the past is truly in the past now, and some stages of life can never be returned to. Don’t contact your ex and don’t act on any of these feelings, just acknowledge that they are there, think about them, but also how much you’ve learned, grown and developed as a person to make this little family, all they need joys you’ll experience and how lucky you are to parent with the man that you love now.

*new joys

I think sometimes this happens when a person represents something you are longing for rather than them in particular. Are you and your partner struggling to have intimate and romantic time together since you have had the baby? It may be that you are missing this and your 'first love' represents your first feelings of romance in your mind.

I think it's due to your new baby. You're longing for the ease and selfishness of late teenager-dom.