I just feel that I have reached the end of my tether. It seems like nothing will ever get better.
last year was just one problem after the other, went back to work when Dswas 6 MO but have spent as much time with him at home ill as at work. Oh refuses to take time off from his job so Its always me.
Ds had some health issues which whilst not 'serious' have caused me immeasurable worry and stress, not much help forthcoming from NHS but eventually got help in private sector which we could il afford.
Been trying to sell the house for a year and a half, its OH's house. I owned a flat which I sold last year to enable us to buy a place together but as we are not able to sell his place I feel I have had the little bit of security I had taken away. I only made a few thousand from the sale as I had not owned it long and that was spent on DS treatment. OH refuses to put me on mortgage due to previous bad experience and most days I end up pondering/ worrying what would happen to DS and me if 'something happened'. Both Oh's dad and mine died when young, his dad left his mum well looked after but mine didnt so we spent years struggling and tht terrifies me.
My work has relocated an xtra 20 kiles away, getting there is now gargantuan effort (thats hgow it feels).
Oh seems to be suffering from depression and is VERY difficult to live with (not a bad person but certainly not much fun at present) He refuses to go to his GP as he is worries about the implication having a diagnosis would have on his work prospects.
our relationship is like brother and sister at the moment with no prospect of improvement as far as I can see.
Had a death in the family last year and now I have been ill solidly for last 6 weeks.
I am really sorry this post is probably just a rant but Just desperately needed to 'tell' someone!!!!!!
Does anyone else feel this way/ have similar problems?