He was leaving work and going to the gym. I asked him not to as I was feeling really bad emotionally, very upset and wanted to see him. I was panicking about everything. When he said he wouldn’t come back I said I felt like I might kill myself and how could he do this. He still refused but then did eventually come over an hour later after skipping the gym.
ive learned today that he told his friends about this and was saying I was terrible for saying it and a psycho. I feel so upset as at the time I did feel out or control and worried about what I might do but I also know to everyone else it looks so attention seeking. I am never usually like that. His friends probably hate me now too