My abusive mother died about 5 years ago but i am still suffering with anxiety from her abuse of me. She had dementia for the last 10 years and i had to go no contact before she passed away. I am scared she is somewhere in the after life waiting for me to get there so that the she can continue her abuse. Its making my life hell. I know this is irrational but don't know what to do. Having health issues at the moment so its got worse.