H called me a waste of space

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Can't sleep and can't stop crying and I don't know if it's pregnancy hormones or if this is actually just really shit.
I've had a pretty tough pregnancy this time around, with morning sickness, pregnancy insomnia and mild anaemia. I keep dragging myself on with life though, I haven't taken any sick days and I'm getting on with childcare, household tasks etc.
Last night though my husband called me a waste of space though when I didn't agree with him on something. I just can't get passed this, I'm exhausted from not being able to sleep and I just can't do this anymore. I don't want to be in the same house as him, i just want to go away and never see him again...

I think more detail is needed. Not excusing his words at all, just what did you disagree on?

I didnt feel the reason warranted this reaction and feel that it was instead how he feels about me. We were meeting up with some friends today and one messaged if we could meet later, which doesn't work for us. I thought I'd wait and see what the consensus was and see if everyone wants to meet later, or stick with the original plan. He said I should just say no that doesn't work. Thing is we meet up with them a lot, so one day really doesn't really matter.

That seems like a disproportionate level of vitriol directed towards you for something so minor

I'm pretty sure my feelings about him would change if I thought that's what he thought of me. You will become caught between "performing" so that you do exactly what he wants all the time and lose yourself so he doesn't say it again, or go the other way and just accept he thinks so little of you fundamentally, eroding your self esteem.

Contempt is a relationship killer.