So angry and screwed up

[Ceriane]

I’m not sure what has triggered me, but I keep thinking about the mentally abusive and misogynistic way I was brought up, and how it has affected me my whole life. There is just so much I don’t know where to begin. I have never dealt with it or talked about it properly. I want to go NC with my family. I have pretended everything is okay for too long and it really really isn’t. I know I need therapy but wouldn’t even know where to start.

Take a few deep breaths, take a walk, move your body. Write down your thoughts.

The bottom line is, you can't change the past. It's unfortunate that a lot of us have been affected by things that happened in our childhood, but we have the power to take back control and enjoy life as an adult. Remind yourself that they no longer have control of you. Take back your power.

I definitely think you should speak to someone, even if it's just a close friend. Getting it off your chest will work wonders so you can fully dissect how you're feeling in order to move on.

Otherwise you will spend a LOT of time overthinking everything and it'll eat away at you.

How about using here as a starting point? Just start writing.... there will be people here who can relate and guide you.

Thank you both. In a much better frame of mind today. User23072 you are so right!