Hi, I am in the process of separating from what has become a toxic destructive mess of a relationship. I am early 40s and have spent the last 22 years of my life in two failed relationships that have both ended significantly badly. I have a beautiful seven year old son by my ex husband but I cannot shake the feeling that I have massively let him down again (the guy I am separating from has been in his life for five years not his bio dad who he regularly sees and has a great relationship with) I am also which is probably pathetic to admit scared of being alone again. I have good friends but the majority of them will be with their families etc on weekends whilst my son is with his dad. How do you get to a place with being ok on your own? Instinctively I know it is much better to be alone then to be in a negative toxic relationship but that doesn’t make it any easier at this point in time 😞 I fluctuate from feeling really positive about the future to feeling completely flat and depressed.