In a long term 5 year relationship but falling for someone else. For a bit of background, I met the guy in question through work. As we were both young an silly on nights out we would always end up being drunk and having a flirt and a kiss, which is completely fine. A year or so later, I started my relationship and the drunken kissing stopped immediately.
Fast forward 5 years and we are both in long term relationships and hadnt kissed in years, despite having many nights out together. We always had a flirty sort of relationship and I guess I always have a soft spot for him and would have these moments. However earlier on in the year when we were out (drunk) he pulled me aside and he kissed me and I never stopped it. I don't know if I just liked the attention or if I was excited by the fact that he might be interested. I was racked with guilt the next day but chose not to tell my boyfriend as convinced myself it was a silly drunken mistake and I am guessing he chose to not tell his girlfriend.
But now it seems to have opened up a gate of feelings and I know I definitely want it to happen again. I think I maybe always had these feelings but they have been hidden. I have a feeling that he feels the same way towards me but not 100%. I'm trying to fight it so hard as I do love my boyfriend but it's becoming more and more difficult and he is sure to start noticing soon! At the end of the day I don't see it ending in anything which makes it all the more confusing.
What would people do in this situation? How do I get over my feelings so I can continue happily with my boyfriend? I can't exactly cut him off as we work for the same company and share mutual friends through work. Please no nasty judgemental comments... its a difficult situation and only really understandable if you have been in it before.