Why do I feel like this?Im with someone else...

[whatsyoyrdlav]

I don't understand what I'm feeling.
I was with someone who treated me awful,he was narcissistic (I know that term is thrown about a lot on here but he was ) he put me through hell and I ended up on anti depressants.
Now he has just got married (after a short relationship) and I felt sad we would never speak again ,I was upset that he was out of my life and that was it but I'm with someone new and I love him so much.
We have the best relationship and have a good life together -and even if my ex text I would ignore and I don't want him back because I wouldn't want to loose my partner.
I don't understand how I feel
I was crying the other day because I knew we would never speak again ..he honestly had my emotions up and down when we were together.

I love my partner and couldn't imagine not being with him now.
What's wrong with me then? Why did I cry over my ex?

Your ex made you believe you were nothing without him which is why you are feeling this way - it’s bollocks. He’s a wanker. Perhaps counselling would help you realise the impact he had on you so you can move forward.
i would be deleting and blocking him on all SM.
he made you feel worthless and he doesn’t deserve your attention any more

I think you were unconsciously crying about what might have been if things had been different. When you started life with your ex you would have had no idea of how things would turn out and would have begun the relationship expecting it to last.
You have both move on and you are happy with your new partner. Try not to over think it op. Have a little cry about what might have been then put the past where it belongs ...in the past. Enjoy your happy new relationship. Face front. The future beckons. 💐

This abuser has woven deep psychological dependence on him throughout your mind. You don't miss him, you know he's an abusive twat. You miss the bond he created between you, problem is it's an unhealthy toxic bond, cleverly masked as love by a cunning narc. You need to either read up on this and self help yourself past it, or get a good counsellor to help. You are not truly missing this idiot, it's all mind tricks

Because you're not fully recovered, and you still give him part of the responsibility for defining who and how you are.

I looked at his wedding picture and just felt eugh
Like he's nothing -I let him put me through hell and he's nothing.
I felt no attraction but a sad feeling