Feeling distant from extended family help.

[notmrscookie]

Just feeling low.
My parents died suddenly nearly 30 years ago. I have tried my best to keep in touch with aunts and uncles and cousins.
Tomorrow is uncles funeral and spent today with all my extended family at a pre funeral meal and just felt so out of touch.
It's so hard I am over 400 miles from most of them and my 3 aunts all sisters do so much together and chat regularly and I just get a few phone calls through out the year . I try and visit when I can but just feel so lonely tonight. Really just wish I stayed home and made an excuse not to come up.
It's not helped that i had a kid out of marriage and am now divorced and never went to college and neither did my kids. My cousin and there families are all really smart and have good jobs earning 60k plus and kids are all in university getting 1st .
Just want to hide away tomorrow.

I’m really sorry you’re feeling low and a bit detached from the extn family. I know it’s not something that can change by tomorrow, but there are ways to improve it in the future by investing more time. Maybe more calls and meet-ups? It’s not too late.

Who cares if they earn more - jobs and money come and go - you’re no less worthy. They aren’t better than you and they are lucky to have you there. Believe that tomorrow.

@SeekingTact Thank you for your reply . I have tried to come up once a year but at over 900 miles round trip its a lot of money . I think ts just the lttle things that upset me . Today was ok and I am now sat in a hotel making the most of 4 me time days . I will make more effort but also my aunt has said she will come down and visit as she no longer is tied down .