Hey MN!
Im feeling pretty crappy right about now. Been married 9 years.
Hes a wonderful man,has his faults but who doesnt ay? Before him i was in and out of terrible relationships, he got up at 5 this morning,he said to watch football (his team play,as it was away) which i thought was odd but still i went to sleep! I figured in the morning,he took his 2 phones downstairs(ones a normal phone,ones a work phone he contacts me on and close family), i asked him why he took them both,he said it was habit (he gets up at 5 for work) he joked about saying do i want to ask him anymore questions, but i couldnt help reading his msgs, iv done it a couple of times before, he doesnt say anything when i go on his phone,vice versa, feeling pretty shitty now though, cant help but feel he deserves better than this, he is a great man, tells me im beautiful all the time etc. I dont know why i did it, i dont think i will ever 100% trust anyone and maybe thats it, i wished i could! Only reason iv came on here is because i have no friends to talk to sadly.