My head is fried, I bumped into my ex at huge festival. Ex dumped me 4 weeks ago due to me being too anxious and it turning into arguments. Drained him in the end. My mental health wasn’t great at the time.
Literally there was 20,000 people at this festival. He ended up right behind me not only during one music set but TWO DIFFERENT ONES.
He said hi to me and we got chatting about what we’ve been up to. He told me he’s okay but been struggling and it’s been hard for him.
I then lost my friends and my phone died - annoyingly he insisted on getting me home safe. He was very flirty, the sexual tension was unreal. We kept looking at each other up and down, he was a little bit touchy and he kept saying “oooof you look seriously fit today”. Honestly the sexual tension was unreal. Kept catching each other’s gaze for ages.
He then said he’s very sorry but it’ll never work. He’s not in the headspace for anything right now, with anyone, and he doesn’t believe things would ever change. We argued too much and didn’t get on (but we do, I was just going through hard time). He apologised if he led me on tonight but said he was still very attracted to me and kept saying he’d never find anyone as fit as me. He put his arm around me a few times.
He said he felt so happy that he saw me happy today and he was so happy for me feeling better in myself. He said his last goodbye, gave me a huge hug and kiss on the forehead and held my hand. I said I never stopped loving him and he said “yeah I care about you too” OUCH
My brain is fried and I’m just so upset and confused.