Hi everyone,
I'll try to give as much background information but I'll try keep it as brief as possible. I'd really appreciate any advice.
My son is 14 years old and I haven't been with his dad since he was 2 but we continued an on/off relationship after that until he was around 8 but I put a stop to it all because he was a narcissist who physically and mentally abused me. It was an awful co-dependent toxic relationship with a man who cheated on me many times so I was definitely better off without him.
I can honestly say I'm not pining after him or in love with him anymore and he has since got 2 girls pregnant and had more children despite not being a good father to my son. We no longer speak because he can not respect my boundaries so he sees my son through his grandma.
So a friend of mine follows a model on instagram and sent me some of her makeup pictures and I went on her story and noticed she had posted a picture of my sons dad! with the caption "So handsome!" Im not sure why this has triggered me so much but It's really made me angry and I don't even know want to be with him but I just feel really horrible and weird since seeing it and I can't seem to shake this feeling. When I e broke up I did drink to excess and never really got closure so I'm not sure if that why I feel this way but I really feel depressed and want to move past this feeling so any thoughts or advice would be much appreciated xx