Hi,
I don’t really know where to start but basically I have been with my partner for 6 years and we have a child together who is 4 months old. Other than the first year of our relationship we have always had a bit of an up and down relationship and stupidly I thought having a baby would improve things but i feel like I’ve reached rock bottom.
If my daughter ended up with the kind of person her father is I would be truly devastated. He has grown more and more aggressive as the relationship has gone on and I struggle to think of a name that I haven’t been called at this point. It used to upset me but now I feel a bit numb to it all. He has broken up with me at least 20 times, absolutely certain each time that he does it, to then say he didn’t mean it when we start to talk about things. Since having a baby I’ve realised just how much of an angry person he is and how much he doesn’t respond to situations in a normal way. He blames me for his anger but even when we’re on good terms he’s quick to get angry and overreact to every little thing. I can’t so much as spill a drink at home without being yelled at.
Sorry for the long post but I’m just a bit lost. We have a house and baby together and I feel completely stuck. I think about how stressful it would be to break up and I think I can’t do it. But I also don’t want to spend the rest of my life being completely miserable and walking on eggshells. Not sure what to do anymore.