About a week ago I had a very realistic dream, one of the ones that feel real.
I’m 37, but in my dream I was 40 and I was attending my school reunion. It was in the hall at my old school, food was served by dinner ladies, everyone was all fancy & dressed up (I was wearing a black jumpsuit that I have). In this very realistic dream I popped outside for some air and ended up talking to the guy I had a MASSIVE but also completely top secret crush on at school. As I’m apparently a grown up now, in the dream I opened up about said crush and he said he felt the same but was with someone etc etc … anyway mid dream chat I woke up.
I cannot stop thinking about this dream! I know full well that dream man and real life man are not the same! And neither is dream me because I doubt I’d be that open (for one thing… I’m in a long term relationship, which I’m happy in .. obviously he winds me up from time to time but overall we’re good!). Also in real life that lovely jumpsuit I was wearing is a bit tight.. so I was definitely in a slightly upgraded body!
It’s not unusual for me to have a little Facebook search of people I used to know… so I’ve done that. Guy from school is now married with kids. He did marry a girl from school who I wasn’t a big fan of, she seemed to look down on nearly everyone. She wasn’t a bully or anything, just a had this way about her that was quite cold and a bit belittling (she had a ‘ok so, entertain me’ look she gave people who had a lower cool-ness ranking. I had a lot of friends at school from all sorts of groups but one think I am not is cool!).
So after my little bit of research I’ve decided a dream is a dream and actually he’s probably not as lovely in real life as infatuated 16 year old me thought! But obviously I’m posting here because I keep thinking about the dream. It was sooo real! It actually felt more real than real life! So it’s got me wondering about what it’s like to actually meet someone as a ‘grown up’ who you had a crush on as a teen.
Has anyone ended up connecting with a teenage crush and realised they’re just not what the hormone fuelled you thought? Or did they end up been just like your dream! Or, did you (as I’d expect I would) revert back to the teenage version of yourself? For me this would probably mean gazing at said crush from afar but making it completely unnoticeable to the object of my affection, or anyone who may say anything to them!