Ok so for context, I recently completed a 6 year degree (distance learning.) I was so excited to start a career in a sector I've always wanted to work in but my husband has been wanting to try for a child for years now and I am 30 so I agreed to put the career change on hold and try. It has been almost a year and I have not conceived and since coming off the pill after 10 years, the PMS is pretty much constant. I feel a shell of myself, the last couple of months when my period is late I go to pee on a pregnancy stick and miraculously my period comes which seems like a sick joke. I feel insecure and depressed constantly and my husband is working away more which is adding to it. He keeps telling me that my hormones are making me 'unhinged' and the less understanding he has the more I am starting to resent him. If I say the wrong thing because I am hormonal he scares me, he shouts, swears and berates me. I am constantly apologising/begging for forgiveness. I feel so lost and alone right now, I'm in a job I hate, I can't get pregnant and my hormones are making me unhinged. I always knew pregnancy would be hard but I didn't think that trying to concieve would make me feel like my marriage is falling apart. Did anyone else find that this stage caused problems in their relationship, or is this a massive red flag?