Ok, I’m new to this but I’ll try and keep it short. About over a month ago my husband ended things with me again because he doesn’t like my child…this has been a reoccurring theme for 6 years and yes I know I shouldn’t have stayed. There was also a lot of control, jealousy etc. It was very heartbreaking regardless for me until I found out he had been telling lies to people about the situation etc. this was the first time I didn’t cry. I didn’t feel bad anymore I just felt so angry. I know I still love him but regardless it’s over and I’m just so in disbelief with him. Fast forward to last night, I was flirting with a friend (male) and thought, well why not and slept with him but I just feel so disgusted in myself and eaten up with guilt. I feel so low. I feel like I’ve cheated when I know I clearly haven’t and know I’m not with anyone but I’m wondering if anyone has ever had this? I know now I’m clearly not ready and need to still focus on myself and my son but I feel like I had a moment of “I’ll do what I want now”
sorry for the ramble.