You know when you get dumped and everyone says "you'll get over it", well I never did!

[ShadeOfBlue]

Pathetic really, but I didn't. It absolutely broke my heart, it still feels broken now, although it has numbed with time, and I haven't been in love since. It happened 13 years ago. I now have a lovely family with someone else, and all is fine, but.......
I know it's pathetic, I don't have my ex on a pedestal, even if we were both still single I doubt we would ever work out together as we are such totally different people, and deep down, I feel I was never good enough for him. Turned out he agreed!
Anyone else?

have i scared everyone off??

not at all, if anything, I have been thinking more about this in a positive way. maybe writing things down helps. but also, I am intrigued by the question of what makes someone so special in this way...? esp as there are often a few people in our lives who have been special to us in relationships. what makes that connection? could it be mainly the sense of unfinished business with some rather than others, ie with others we came to a realisation that the sparkle was without foundation..? in a time when sparkle was all (rather than the rather more mundane awe of daily kindness and companionship, which is much more important. I was thinking this today, someone I had a very brief and not very important relationship with put up some photos from college days, including one of us together, actually looking rather sparkly and delighted... but I remember that photo being taken, and thinking, can I go up behind him and hug him and give him a kiss on the top of the head, or will he find that proprietorial/a bit clingy and girly... and thought isn't it great to feel so at ease with DH..)

sorry for long rambling post...