Hi All.
I have another thread about my relationship. And I know it's bad, I know it should be over. I just can't do it. I know I will get flamed for saying that and I am sorry - I have been torn down so much over the last 9 years, I'm waiting on him doing something huge to give me the 'walk away' strength.
Anyway, a couple of things;
Last week we were sitting on the sofa, he was scrolling through TikTok and one of those MGTOW videos came on, I switched off and wasn't really listening, but it was about not trusting women. He then said,
"I've followed you before, to see if you were parked where you said. There was one time I even called one of your mates because I couldn't find your car. You remember? You said to me they said they thought Steve had called. Your car wasn't there. Oh yeah, I've followed you a few times".
I didn't know what to say to this. I was flabbergasted. I am always where I say I am. I don't recall the 'incident' above at all. We had friends coming over so said nothing more of it. He has a history of not being where he says he is.
The weekend he had a hissy fir because I washed a t-shirt that he needed that day - I had inadvertently picked it up with my stuff and thrown it in with the rest of the darks (it is grey) (I apologised and said this is what happened). He said did I not notice when I was hanging it out. I said no, I don't actually pay that much attention to the clothes! There was no argument there but he managed to create one.
I just got myself a new FitBit. Last night I got in the bath and he looked at it (on the side) and said "is that how many steps you're supposed to have done? You've been sat down at work all day!"
All I could say was it isn't accurate. All I'd done was walk from the car to the office, office to the shop for a drink, and office to car - I'd been home from 2 pm and cleaned out fish tanks and the like. Obviously, it picks up on arm movements, not steps. When he saw it it was 4,250 steps, by the time I went to bed 90 minutes later it was over 5,300 (I didn't point this out as I didn't want an argument).
I feel like I'm walking on eggshells. I half expect him to turn up at my office today, to make sure I'm here. He's been over-nice this morning. Either that, or he will be 'unavailable' today to make me think he's up to something. Sad truth is, I don't care - I wish he was, though even then he'd still paint me as the bad person.
Sorry for the long post, it's hugely helpful to just rant sometimes, and I don't have anyone IRL I can tell the nitty gritty to