Feel so low

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Honestly feeling so really down rite now wondering why life just keeps testing me! Last few weeks me and my partner of 9months have been haveing a crap time he keeps blowing hot and cold then when I. Mention something that's upset me he says I'm not well and need help but other times he reassures me and says sorry! I no he's been feeling crap for a while as he hasn't saw his son in 6 months so I can only imagine how he feels! I have kids but I see him twice a week and its absolutely brilliant but I can't work out what goes through his head when he's.Blowing hot and cold! Last nite he started an argument then turned it round on me and I'm questioning myself thinking is it just me is it really In my head! Iv been hurt before and he knows how much I took for me to let him in my life gain my trust now I feel like he nows he has it so he's playing h games! I'm finding my self so upset begging him to talk to me sometime id never have done no matter how much hurt I felt big this is really dragging me down to the point I don't even see a way past feeling like this! I hide it for the sake of my kids but I haven't ever felt this low in my life

It shouldn't be like this after 9 months. Finish it.

Sounds like if he wasn't in your life you would be much more along the road to being chilled and happier.

Tell him enough it, whatever it is, isn't working for you.

I think you’d be happier without him frankly. Hes not making you happy

Leave him. Starting an argument with you then turning it round on you, and making you question yourself.... just no. That's the beginning of gaslighting.

It's only been 9 months. If he's like this now, just imagine how much worse it will get. Him not being able to see his son does not excuse the way he is behaving towards you.

You also shouldn't have to beg your partner to speak to you. He's playing with your head. Get out of this situation before you get in too deep. End things with him now and you'll feel so much happier in a few months time.