I’m going through a divorce. I initiated it after weeks of silent treatment and a final counselling session where he basically said I’d been awful since our DC were born a few years ago and I needed to stop abusing him.
Since then I have had support from Women’s Aid who have told me they think he was emotionally abusive (and his accusation was DARVO), but I’m struggling to get my head around it, doubting myself, feeling like everything is all my fault , that sort of thing.
It’s been a few months now and I feel like I’ve fallen into a black hole. I couldn’t cope anymore with being blamed for everything and felt so bad about myself that I needed to separate. I did it because I thought I’d feel better, but I feel worse. At least before there were good times. I miss them. I miss him. I’m going to be alone forever (one of the DC has complex needs and will never live independently so I can’t see anyone being interested in me). I feel so bad for the DC and the impact on them.
i just feel so so sad. I want to go back in time and stay, but its too late. Can anyone tell me it gets better?
Thanks for reading.