The last two days I've had bad flu on top of finding out I'm pregnant and just overall feeling rubbish. This morning I got up with my baby as per sat bedside my partner in bed wheezing coughing couldn't breathe feeding our son. He knows I'm not well didn't offer to help and went to work. I called him a few hours ago telling him I genuinely don't think I could look after our son safetly I could barely pick him up or myself I couldn't breathe or see stop being sick I was crying. He told me to take some breaths and if I could pick up the phone to call him and give our son a bottle then I can do it. He said he wouldn't come home early that was that. I was really upset but don't know if I was being unreasonable to be or just being hormonal. I get a jobs important but his taken days off just for the fun of it when he first started. It's a commission job so he wouldn't get paid but his been smoking the devils lettuce AT WORK and he has no motivation for the job anymore he doesn't get home till 10pm and one day off a week. I guess I just feel lonely really. Tired of eating dinner alone and if he just had a normal job he could come home and take over. I feel single. Idk if he was in my shoes and he told me he couldn't take care of our son safely I would definitely come home or even at least an hour early