I broke up with my ex about a week ago. I’ve been wanting to do it for ages but was worried about how hard things would be without him.
It was a crap relationship, he was ridiculously messy and lazy and sulked all the time and exploded over nothing and was negative about absolutely everything all the time, including my looks. He loves our daughter but expects me to do everything for her while he makes the atmosphere really tense and stressful. He was also a massive drain on money because he couldn’t be bothered working.
Despite all of that I’m still struggling with the breakup and need help snapping out of it. I’m pretty isolated and if I don’t have my ex to talk to then I go days on end without speaking to anybody. I have nobody to chat with, nobody to share news with, it’s just me sat here alone all the time with only my 3yo for company because I’m really not the type of person who can just go make friends with strangers. I feel absolutely numb and I can’t eat, can’t enjoy things, I’d probably just lie there and stare at the ceiling for a month straight if I didn’t have DD to care for. I got my hair done yesterday to cheer me up, but I just zoned out feeling numb and I bet the hairdresser thought I was a right miserable sod!
I can’t take antidepressants because of a heart problem so I’m going to have to snap out of this myself. I’ve never felt like this before, usually I just feel upset for a couple of weeks then get over it but this time is so different and the lack of any emotion is scaring me. Any advice?