Still sad over break - up

[Ilovetea13]

I just can't get over my break up with my ex..
We have a son together and it's been 8 weeks since he left. We were together for almost 12 years.
It was very strained and we began arguing a lot, he would say nasty things and life just became hard. No cheating occurred(that I'm aware of) .
He sent me a message to say he's moving and that was it.
He sent his family to tell me he had finished with me.
Family arranged days to have son, he wouldn't even talk or speak to me, I heard nothing for at least 5 weeks.
2 weeks ago he started picking son up but without talking to me, I did try i asked if we could talk at one point and he just said "what about" .
Family now have pretty much cut me off nobody really bothers talking to me, I know he's now my "ex" but I always got on well with the family and now it's just as if I don't exist anymore.
Ex came today took son wouldn't even look at me(I said hi ect politely) and on dropping off just said bye to son and wouldn't talk to me.
It's so upsetting I genuinely haven't done anything wrong, I'm trying my best to be a good mum to my son and get mentally stronger but every time I see my ex and he blanks me like he does I go back to square one and get as upset as I was 8 weeks ago.
I love him and would have him back but I know that's never going to happen and I'm trying so hard to move on.
How can I stop getting so upset when he picks son up and blanks me because I'm never going to get over things while this keeps happening..

That's so tough on you you don't deserve that and he sounds awful to have treated you that way. I suspect he has cheated and that's why he's acting this way. It will take time to get over this. Do you have someone like a family member or friend who could do the handovers for you sometimes? Have you had legal advice at all?
You've done nothing wrong.
If he's blanking you then you don't have to be nice and say hello, just blank him back.
Is there any chance you can get some counselling, like via your GP? and get all the support you can irl.
Be very kind to yourself.

I would see if you can arrange for a family member to do handover for you so that you don't need to see him. He has been abrupt and disrespectful to you and this naturally hurts. You will also feel that you have not had your chance to say your piece. A man like this you are better off without. I would suggest that you look at this website www.runawayhusbands.com and it might give you some thoughts to mull over. It's surprising how many cowardly men there are out there.

That's it I feel like I've had no closure at all.
He broke up with me via his mum and she made arrangements of what days he would be having DS .
At first I was intouch with his mum/family asking if he may come back and what's going on ect as he wouldn't talk to me but I think they've just got sick of me now and don't get intouch with me anymore.
Alot of people have said he may of met someone else but his mum said he hasn't, suppose she may not know(he's gone back living with family) .
Every week I feel better and better, happy with DC, I've been trying to work on myself(been going to the gym on my days off when do at school) but then the day comes when he has DC and I'm just back to the mess I was at the start.
I have a good family support network but they don't live locally so can't really help with handovers ect. My friends say why would you care and just blank him back but when he's there It just upsets me. After 12 years to just be cut off like I don't matter and don't exist. I think I do need some counselling or something..