I've been with my bf for 8 years but feel now we're drifting apart. There is a ton of history - got married - no support financially (my house, he has gambling problem, rather leave than contribute more), no emotional support (I had a very bad self harm incident and ended up in hospital where he told them I was attention seeking), sending inappropriate messages to my daughter because he was jealous of my lodger! (a choice I made to help me financially after he left) I'm not saying I'm the innocent one with being a shopaholic and drinking issues (which both I'm addressing) but I'm now divorced but gf and bf because felt a proper split was too "harsh" (my belief).
Things have changed so much, positively. I haven't self harmed, I don't drink during the week, I've got a part time job. My daughter who's at uni won't come home because of the inappropriate texts my bf has sent - totally understandable.
Where do I go from here? I think it's at the end of the road but just don't know what to do - stupid yes I know but just need reassurance and help in what to do. I know I need to end it but how? We've got a holiday in Sep already paid. I don't think I'll find anyone else.
So sorry for the long post.