I find it impossible to have a conversation about something I am unhappy about with my DP. I'm not exaggerating when I say every conversation of this nature escalates very quickly and becomes impossible or a screaming match. Most of the time I don't raise things now as I can't face it, but occasionally I feel I have to when it concerns something important, for example safety related issues relating to our DC.
Im going to find it hard to describe this as my mind feels like a scrambled mess right now. But what happens is very quickly he launches into a tirade of just stuff. I can't think how to describe it. It can be related or unrelated to the original topic, and he goes round and round and on and on at the top of his voice. He barely takes a breath, just keeps going. He tries to mock, patronise, belittle me etc. I can't get a word in edgeways and anything I do say he just speaks over or uses just uses it to launch into another tirade of words and more words. It's littered with questions but they're not ones I'm meant to answer. He doesn't stop and all the while I can feel myself filling up with pressure inside and feeling more and more flattened by this endless ranting. It takes my breath away with its energy and power to flatten me. I end up feeling like I want to do anything just to get him to stop talking. I can't put into words accurately enough how awful this makes me feel and how unbearable I find it. It's utterly draining.
I don't know what to do.