During therapy, I have gradually realised that there have been many occasions of emotional and physical abuse during my relationship of 19 years.
We are getting a divorce now, but am struggling with feelings of shame and brokenness. I am struggling to reconcile the fun times and laughter I shared with my DH with the fact that in difficult times, he would occasionally hurt me. He works hard and adores the children, even if he struggles with his temper, but I have lost all attraction to him because of what he has put me through.
I can’t believe how many of my own boundaries I allowed him to cross because I wanted us to work so badly.
Can anyone suggest books or links that might help me work through this? I feel really broken and I can’t imagine ever being in another relationship in future.