I've posted here before about my EXDP and about how much I'd been struggling post his affair, emotional and financial abuse and control during and since our relationship. He's still been able to have me under his spell, I've been having therapy though and it is helping and I am feeling stronger in myself.. but I can't seem to let go, of the hope that one day he'll return to the loving family man he was in the beginning, that he'll become the partner & father me and the DC want but I know it's not going to happen, every time I see him I'm so sad after, he's just come over today to help with something at home and my mood just plummeted rapidly, and I can't stop crying since he left even though nothing triggered it, it's just the feeling of not being a family & of how much he's hurt me and let me down. And then knowing after everything is left to me again, and it's really hard 😞 I've seen the freedom program talked about on here a lot, but unable to go to a class in person due to my youngest DD but I've just purchased the online course. I guess my question is will it really help? What else can I do? I need to move on and get out of his spell 😞