I ended up with someone in quite a high powered job, I admit no it largely because it’s sort of expected in my social circle and I felt under pressure. I did fall in love with DP and there’s lots there that we have in common. He’s a good man, if not brilliant always at being a partner. I’m pregnant.
Over the last few months DP has let me down here and there, forgetting scans etc. I’ve just felt quite alone.
ive had a friend from school ive been in touch with for the last ten years, well before I met DP. Nothing ever happened between us and I haven’t actually seen him for over ten years! But we’ve always stayed in touch and laughed often, have the same humour etc. Years ago I wouldn’t have even considered him as he didn’t fit the criteria expected in my social cuticle (I’m aware what a dick I sound there).
Anyway in the last year we’ve grown closer. Absolutely nothing sexual but equally he is like my best friend. I can’t help imagining what that would be like in a relationship. I just don’t have that with DP.
That said, for all I know in day to day real life this man could be terrible as a partner. I have no idea. I just hate the fact me and DP don’t really have a friendship in any real way.
I sometimes want to tell my friend how I feel but he doesn’t even know I’m pregnant yet. I feel rubbish.