My wife and i married 6 months ago and we have been together 3 years.
She is without a doubt the best woman i have met.
I hate to admit im a jealous person and have had trust issues since my now ex wife cheated twice.
That said, i have never untrusted my new wife.
Ive never felt the need to snoop, am relaxed when shes out and trust her.
I dont feel jealous day to day with my wife, however struggle really bad with Retroactive Jealousy and her past.
Her past relationships and comments she has made over the years stick in my mind and eat away at me.
For example, an ex girlfriend once compared me to her rugby playing ex which made me feel crap.
I told my now wife this and her response was, oh you can play rugby if you want though they have great bodies. I looked at her and said you have just done exactly what she did. She just looked blankly at me.
Another time she said to me, my ex used to play drums. It was so hot. I love drumming its hot as fk. Drumming is not even close to the person i am.
Now ill never watch rugby or a live band with her as I think.shes just drooling over these men.
Shes never validating me. She tells me she loves me and tells me this is her best relationship but has admitted to shaing about for years.
Im really struggling with her past and her 'likes' that just isn't me.
She never really initiates sex.
She will over messages, for example will say can we fck tonight but that night she just waits on me. She never 'jumps' me.
Never looks at me and says come fck me.
She told me once thst she was so turned on during sex with an ex she squirted everywhere.
Thats never happened with me and all i do now is think about that when we have sex and wonder why i cant make her do that.
I hate being like this.
Im currently getting therapy for unconnected PTSD which she knows about but this Jealousy is making me depressed and sad.
I sometimes sit in my car and cry about the comments shes made and i feel stupid about it.
Im a grown man with a great job.
My job many think is 'hot'. Shes probably said to me 3 or 4 times my job is hot but never makes a thing out of it like she dod with rugby or drums And i cant understand why.
I've told her more than once how I feel and she's apologised but I never see much change
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Rainkilt123 · 25/05/2022 13:35
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