Anyone been in a terrible place during pregnancy but it got better? I feel like life is crumbling

[FlanherHs]

I am four months pregnant and considering termination even though I don’t want to do that. I’ve always wanted children but this pregnancy is nothing like I thought it would be. It wasn’t planned, at least not for right now. Me and DP had only been together a year and a half. I am not that happy in the relationship, we don’t know what the best plan is living wise (we currently live together but I don’t want to stay here and it’s all getting difficult). Me and my parents have a rocky relationship, ultimately they are there for me but so inconsistent that I don’t consider them to be a source of support.

I a mentally not doing so well, recently started feeling quite depressed. I’ve had episodes of this in the past but not for a long time. I’m referred to a specialist for therapy.

I just feel like none of this was how it was meant to be. I feel so vulnerable and sad and alone. I feel worthless. I want to run away and I can’t. I am so sad.

Hey,

Slightly different but when my DS was born I had terrible PND. 1st lockdown baby and husband had to go back to work 3 days after having baby so here I was, confined to the house with no help. I felt robbed of how maternity leave was supposed to be and robbed of feeling happy as I spent most of the time feeling in a daze; every worry was magnified into a mass panic and crying constantly. Our relationship nearly crumbled and it took nearly 2 years for things to get better. At the time I thought things would never get better.
So, I won’t lie and say it’s an easy fix but these feelings do eventually get there. We had couples counselling which did help but it took a lot of working out communication and things he was doing that were unhelpful.

Ultimately you’ve got to be sure of what you want to do. You don’t have to stay with your partner if you don’t want to and could still have your baby. Do what makes you happy rather than thinking about anyone else.