I spilt up with my ex last year December it was awful relationship towards the end he was mentally draining and abusive. I have tried to arrange contact for our son loads of times and he always says I’m never having him back it becomes a nightmare. He’s hardly paid anything toward our son since he was born. I work full time pay for everything including a £500 a month nursery bill with no help from him as he said he shouldn’t pay as I earn earn more. He’s been abusive to my mum when she’s been the go between with my little one she now refuses to to do it rightly so. This weekend was another attempt and it’s like he just wants to see my son to see me and will do anything he can to make me pick him up or start a argument so i panic and stress thinking he’s not giving him back. It’s mentally draining I want my son to see his dad but I do feel that he’s only seeing him to get at me and see me. All his messages he use to send before he was blocked was about getting back together even though I have made it very clear it will never happen he then turns straight to abuse I’m a awful mother I’m the worst in the world. I honestly don’t know what to do for the best anymore do I just go down the legal route I don’t see another option as I don’t want any contact with him and if I don’t drop off the little one and pick him up he prob won’t see him. It’s like he’s using my son to control me still or try. I asked him to FaceTime my son the other weekend at tea time he ignored me and messaged back at 11pm FaceTime him now I know my son sleeps through the night and I know he just wanted to see where I was. So he just started sending me loads of abuse saying I’m not having him back next day was sorry and then off again he went with abuse.