I'm a single mum. Have put my career before love over the last few years. I keep dating apps active. And occasionally test the water. But in dating apps I get bored or lose interest very quickly.
And in the real world I only seem to attract men who are unavailable or don't want to commit. Or in the case of the ex, incapable of being faithful.
My history is I had an affair, and have spent every day since wishing that this guy was here.
I blame this on my acceptance of attention from men, when I know that I should just ignore it. But I don't know how.
It seems every man who pays attention really does fall in to the above categories. And I don't know how to stop myself from craving the attention (because let's face it, some attention is better than none when you have such low self esteem). And I have no idea what it is about me that ultimately can't move on from my past.
I feel so lonely at the moment. And i know this contributes towards wanting communication/attention from anyone, despite knowing they aren't a long term prospect.
I don't need judgement for my life choices. I've spent a very long time trying to get myself in a good place. But is there something wrong with me? And if there is, how do I fix it?