She wants someone else

[flydan]

I'm utterly heartbroken.

I recently discovered my Ws search history where she is actively looking for advice on how to sleep with a co worker and how to have sex with someone whilst married.

I thought until recently that we were really strong together. I'm completely devastated. I don't know what to do, I feel lost.

Have you spoken to her about this?

Oh no! Do you have kids together?

Yes, 3. Haven't spoken about it yet. I didn't want to make the OP too long but she's currently living and working in another country while I've stayed behind to keep the kids in school. I think the distance and time apart has fuelled the thoughts of someone else. I was planning on moving with the kids to be with her in the summer, but now I've no idea. I'm truly broken.

So sorry that sounds horrible. I would suggest counselling for you and also to seek advice from a solicitor. Also don't keep it to yourself. Share with a trusted friend, it's too much to try and cope with on your own.

Do you think she is planning a break up or wants to go behind your back? Only consolation is that you seem to have a good setup with the kids & work if you do break up.

Do you have any support? Agree with a previous poster that however hard it is best to talk to friends, your family.