Hi,
My dp and I have been together two years and have a 16 week old baby.
My partner has pushed me a few times before the baby was born and has been violent twice since. Once on the night our baby was home and once when I was 6 weeks pp. The violence was in the form of pushing. He also beats his head with his fist causing lumps etc.
I grew up with divorced parents and my dad was very absent for a while.
In response to the behaviour of my dp, my family and his encourage us to work it out for our daughter but I'm conflicted.
They say that it isn't him. He doesn't do this thinking he'll hurt me, but sees red. He forgets everything he did in the moment. It's like he changes into a different person when he's tired and pushed too far.
Childrens services are involved and are okay with us staying together as I have acted protectively by finding help.
I deeply morally know this is all wrong, but I've been made to doubt myself. I'm scared to tell him I want to leave, not because I think he'll get violent but because I care about him and don't want to see him upset.
I also want the best for my daughter and my mind is clouded by others judgment.
Some people may recognise my story as I've posted before.
Please be kind. I am deeply upset but masking it all for the sake of my family and partners ease. I am only young and I'm confused.