NC for this. I left my partner during the first lockdown and lived alone with my child (not his) and he spent the whole time showing me how much he had changed, being kind and supportive, he got counselling and various other things to prove how much I meant to him and how much he wanted to be with us. So after 18 months we moved back in, and of course a few months in and I realise that he hasn't changed at all. Gaslighting, manipulative behaviour, constantly trying to prove he is right and I am wrong to the point of googling things mid conversation to prove he is right( not that it matters but he is rarely right in these situations) ED that he blames on me, subtle negging, the lot.
Now I feel trapped because all my friends and family are so happy we were back together, my child LOVES living back with him and would be devastated if we left again. I can't escape, i don't really tell people IRL because they all got so bored of hearing about it last time. I did the hard bit before and I just don't think I've got the strength to do it again.
Help :(