went out with my good male friend last night. We got drunk - me more so. I stupidly went out drink after an operation a few days ago. I was on pain killers and hadn’t eaten much. It had disaster written all over. I am starting to remember bits now.
last night was not my finest moment. I am normally not that big a drinker.
we were having a great time. But I did drink a lot and got very drunk. He was staying at mine on the sofa bed. However managed to convince him to share a bed with me as I was cold.
he said I tried it on with him. So he left to sleep on the sofa bed. I then appeared with a duvet and told him we were done.
in the morning we chatted and he said I was blind drunk, tried it on with him and he was upset with me ending the friendship by his rejection. He said that he would never had made a move on me as I was really drunk.
he said that I was in a right state, unusual for me. He thought we were good friends and even though at times the thought had crossed his mind, he valued our friendship. He was disappointed I couldn’t remember a lot. Said he saw me differently and would of left if he lived closer and was considering ending the friendship.
he said I also blew his mind last night on how I felt when I supported him through a crisis last year. He hadn’t realised that I also struggled with it and was upset that he hasn’t realised.
I am so embarrassed that I made a move on my friend. All I can excuse is drink made me do it. We had a chat and it seemed ok. But I am embarrassed. All he said was the truth comes out.
what can I do to get back to friends.