i have become such a cynic.
i have three very clingy kids. bloody dd wont stop screaming. and its just a whine, she doesnt need anything. eldest cant seem to think about naything but watching tv. and ds2 who is three, has just done a pooh in his pants, and left them on the bed!
but thats just five minutes in ;my life.
single mom in marriage. dh works twenty hours a day, seven days a week, doesnt come home two nights a week, as stays there. when he is home, he does nothing for the kids. never talks to me, never seems to want sex, unless it is wham bham and not even a thankyou ma'am. just rolls over and goes to sleep. never interested in listenning to anything i say. if i try talking to him, he turns the telly on, or says he is busy. and i can see that he is. always working o something or the other.
which leaves me with the kids. every day. oh, and inlaws dont want to know me.
but, i get to live in nice house, drive nice car. use his credit cards online,( as getting cash out of him is nightmare of fighting.still waiting on petrol and grocery money from last month!)
if i stay, i loose more and more faith in humanity, and life. how am i supposed to teach my kids life is wonderful when i dont think it is.
if i go, i have more problems. financial. social blah blah blah
is there more to life than this? or is this all there is to it?
oh, am also bloody idiot, because still love dh to bits.